Seastar. I haven’t slept right for days there’s been so much on my mind and shit bothering me but tbh I just got a huge reality check. After reading your one post on here I just realized how selfish I have been and now I’m hurt but it’s nothing you did its all me. I can’t believe that It seems I’m going back to the time where all I was, was mean to you and that it seemed I barely cared. I’m just tearing myself apart so bad right now and I don’t even know if any of what I’m saying right now is making sense because the tears are making it so hard to see the screen and type. I just apologize for everything and how I have been lately. All I have been doing is complaining and whining like a little kid to you when I have no real reason to be its all been stupid ass shit and that stupid fucking car when I SHOULD be listening to your problems and complaints but what do I do I act like a dick and ignore it. You have it a lot tougher then I probably ever will and you have been through more than anyone I probably will ever know. You are probably the strongest, biggest hearted girl ever even when your hurt you try to help. I just apologize Kate and I really do truly care about you and I love you and all I want to do is help and make you happy I would die for you if I had too. I know I’ve fucked up lately and that’s what hurts me the most.